Tuesday, February 13, 2007
First Day of Radiation Treatment
On Monday was my first radiation treatment. I knew the routine so I went to the radiation oncology department and grabbed a key to one of the lockers and changed my clothes and waited for them to call me. It was nice to hear one of the nurses say to me that it was sad to see me back here. I understood what she meant. I thought I would be fine as I have had radiation before but as I sat on the cold table half naked and being radiated I had tears start to form in my eyes. I started thinking about how it was only in 2005 that I had five weeks of radiation treatments. I just thought "I can't believe I am back." It was all over in a few minutes and I went back to the locker and got dressed. I got in the car with Michael and just sat quietly as we drove home. He could tell I was very sad but he knows there is nothing he can do but just be there with me. I have a total of fourteen treatments so I hope it works to reduce the pain on the left side.
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Sabina:
Want you to know how much we love you. Praying for you daily that God will sustain you through these very trying days. Mom
Sabina - I remember those radiation treatments. Didn't talk much either after I left. Hang in there. You can do it.
"Cancer can take away all my physical abilities. It cannot touch my mind, it cannot touch my heart and it cannot touch my soul. And those three things are going to carry on forever." ~ Jim Valvano
sabina - thank you for sharing your journey here. it brought tears to my eyes and i know you've shed more than your share. know that you are loved and prayed for. "You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded eachc one in your book." Ps. 56:8
Every obstacle yields to stern resolve. Remember nobody has ever measured, not even poets, how much a heart can hold.
Love you sis.
Sabina, Chaplain Tricia has kept me aware of your illness and your courage and sadness. I want to be among those who pray for you, and Mike and Serena. Thank you for sharing your journey on your site. God bless you esp. in these days of radiation. I hope it will really give you some pain relief.
Chaplain Carolyn (formerly from AHH)
Sabina and Micheal, we are thinking of you and praying for your strength every day. know you are surrounded by friends who care about you!
Hi Sabina, serena and Michael: Dave Yancey here on the left coast.
Steve told me about your site a on Friday and I tried immediately to share a few thoughts in your comment section and I couldn't figure it out until now.
First let me say I cried through the whole written journey knowing that you are such a brave lady.
Sabina, no soldier has ever fought a more difficult battle with a more challenging enemy than the fight you are in this moment.
Be assured that people like Monika and I while on the sidelines viewing we are casting our vote in your favour and praying for you complete healing if that is in the Creator's plan.
Seems strange that we should have any problems and yet we know He rains on the just and the unjust equally.
Sabina, I share the words written by Gloria Gaither "We have this moment to hold in our hands and to touch, as it slips through our fingers like sand; yesterday's gone and tomorrow may never come, but we have this moment today. Then if that were not enough said, she continued with these inspired words...Take the blue of the sky and the green of the forest, and the gold and the brown of the freshly mown hay, and the pale shades of spring and the circus of autumn, and weave you a lovely day."
Sabina...as Nike the shoe manufacturer says...Just Do It!!!
You are an Awesome lady to our world and your battle has already been won!!!!
God Bless non-stop!
Dave & Monika Yancey
Hi Sabina - I have been wanting to thank you for choosing to share your journal/journey with me. I have cried with you, but you have also made me smile and laugh.
I cannot imagine what you are going through, but I hope it helps to know of the impact you have made on the lives of those who have been lucky enough to know you; it is clear you, Michael and Serena have a big team of people who are holding you in their hearts.
I can't help but think that, through your words, you are ensuring that Serena WILL know you. One day she will be privileged to read your story and learn of your sorrow and strength; your love for her and her father; your grace and faith. What a gift!
I think of you often...
Thank you all for love, kind words, prayers, and support.
The first time I was diagnosed with cancer I didn't let anyone share the journey with me. This time I have decided that I don't need to be alone and if there are others that want to share my journey I will let them. I want you to know that it is O.K. to cry along the journey and thank you for sheding your tears as this is a very sad journey that I am on and I am so thankful to have people who love and care for me and my family and are willing to travel on this painful journey with me.
God Bless You.
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