Rays of Peace

I hope that I brought you as much joy as you brought me; as much happiness and pleasure that you provided me as well. The overwhelming sadness and sense of eternal loss that has soaked into every pore of my being left me burdened; it was crushing to see you lying on our bed, a place of refuge, of retreat, of love and comfort. Yet you were at peace. Through the months of suffering, especially the last few days, you were finally at peace. I was in bed with you, beside you, holding you, whispering in your ear. I kissed you. No one was in the room with us. I shed some tears; they fell upon your cold cheek. The peace that radiated from you like a beacon in the darkness of this world still semed to eminate from you, somehow filling the room with a quiet assurance. I told you that you were the greatest woman I had ever met and that you were more beautiful than when you walked down the aisle towards me on the day of our wedding. You were a gifted woman. You were a woman of vision, of determination, you were a person of hope and who inspired hope in others, but most of all you were a woman of integrity, someone who lived a life of virtue and honesty and who expected others to do the same. I admired all of these qualitites about you, but most of all I admired the integrity. I shed tears as I shared these things with you, as we were in bed together for the last time. Never again would we be this close physically in this life. I look forward to when we will see each other again, with your radiant face and your shining eyes. I know there will be rays of peace beaming from your face. It is your gift. I will always love you. As I promised you on our wedding day: 'I give you my undying love'. Thank you all for your prayers and support. I know that Sabina appreciated all of your efforts as well. Thank you.